I want

I want to go somewhere far away. I want to go somewhere where I have a purpose. I want to go someplace without my parents, family, and without my friends. Somewhere I can just venture off on my own for a few weeks and take control of my life. I wish someone would drop me in the middle of a beautiful city, like San Francisco or downtown Minneapolis, and say “have at it.” But most importantly, I want to be trusted enough to do so.

I want to meet new people who will inspire me. I want to meet creative and artistic people, the kind who aren’t easy to come across in the Central Valley. I want to meet the people who are overlooked by society, the ones who are beautiful in their own ways, and I want to remind them of how amazing they are. I want everyone to know that someone will always think they’re breath-taking, even when they don’t think so themselves. Why? Because I believe it’s their right to know they’re loved in one way or another.  

I want to learn. I want learn about everything: books, history, art, and everything in between. I want to be a walking encyclopedia. I want to be the person in class everyone hates because they know everything and any given subject. But most importantly, I want to learn about myself. I want to see how far this world can push me until I crack. I want to know how strong I really am, mentally, emotionally, and physically.

I want to be the one who knows every little detail about you. The person who knows all your hopes and dreams, the one who knows your biggest achievements and your greatest failures. I want to be the one you can lean on, the person who will be there to catch you when you fall. I want to be the one who’s always going to be by your side. I want to be the person you can trust to tell everything to. I want you to vent to me about anything and everything, because I want you to know all your secrets are safe with me.

I want to experience a city like I’ve never done before. I want someone who will make me want to be a better person. I want to be filled with knowledge. I want to be tested. I want to be trusted. And I want to be loved.