I feel happy

I'm beginning to come to terms with the fact that I’m somewhat content with where I am in life right now. I feel happy on a regular basis, and I find myself rarely dwelling on the ‘what if’s’ and ‘what could have been’s’ anymore. I still have those moments every once in a while, but that’s normal, right? The people I’ve surrounded myself with are amazing and I love every single one of them. I love knowing that they will be willing to catch me if I fall. (I really hope that’s not any time soon, though). I'm starting to feel like I finally know what I want to get out of high school and what's truly important to me.

I’m a different person than I was a year ago. I have a different outlook on life, relationships, and people over all. I know I’m stronger than I give myself credit for, and I feel as though I’ve grown into a better person. I’ve made friends, I’ve made enemies, I’ve done things I’m not entirely proud of and I’ve experienced things that have forever shaped my life. All I want now is to better my relationship with God, and allow Him to guide me through things I’ve always felt I had to face alone.  

 I like to think I know everything about everything, like who to trust, how to help friend’s with their relationships, and chemistry, but I clearly don’t. Every day is a learning experience and I’m trying to take it one day at a time. Even though that doesn’t always happen, I really am trying.

I know I'm still young, and I have a life's worth of experiences ahead of me, but I feel as though I have just enough under my belt to make the decisions I'm trying to make. These past few years have been up and down and what I want more than ever is some consistency. I want my life to stay the way it is, just for a few months. That's all I ask.