Christmas

I love Christmas. I love the family, the food, and the cold.

However, I do not like the greedy cousins, drunken aunts and uncles, and not being able to eat things due to braces.

Children these days are just so greedy when it comes time to open presents, my goodness. They get super excited as they open it, and whether they like it or not is apparent on their faces. Everyone is going through tough times right now and the kids need to be aware of that, or the parents need to stop digging themselves into a pit of debt just because it's Christmas. Don't get me wrong, gifts are nice, wonderful even, but the second they become expected to get bigger and more expensive each year, we have a problem. It is (or was) the season of giving, and isn't they whole point of giving is to feel warm inside? To know that you brought happiness to someone else? Because last time I checked, giving wasn't about seeing how much the person you gave to got you in return, then let down because they didn't get you what you wanted. Younger kids need to be taught and understand what Christmas really is and what it's about. It's about family and friends catching up on old times over some wonderful homemade food after attending the Christmas mass and reflecting on the birth of Jesus Christ. Its not about seeing who gets the best presents from who and who spent the most money on their outfit.

We are slowly loosing the true meaning of Christmas and any holidays for that matter and, quite frankly, it's scaring me.

well said

I want (dos)

I want to go far, far away and never come back to this place.
I want to magically have enough money to afford the city life I've always dreamed about.
I want to be able to get on a train, and arrive at San Francisco and take it all in.
I want to walk around in the evening my pea coat, scarf, and Starbucks in my hand and get lost in that city.
I want to wake up in the morning, get ready, and go out to lunch with my best friends on the pier and look off into the water.
I want to meet someone wonderful and classy.
I want him to take me on a picnic date in the park on a beautiful spring day.
I want to make a name for myself, doing what I want to do, when I want to do it.
I want to be able to have people be proud of me.
I want my parents to realize that I won't be a failure if i don't get into an ivy league.
I want to be able to change my mind and be the free spirit I never was.
I want to be able to make mistakes and not get belittled for it.
I want people to stop expecting stuff out of me, and be genuinely happy when I accomplish something.
I want to stop being compared to others, especially those who I have and never will be like.
I want to be successful, but humble.
I want to become my own person on my own terms.
I want to be in control of my own life.

i've become another victim of tumblr

that's right. i made a tumblr. and it's pretty dang awesome.

i'm going to pinky promise to try and not neglect this blog, even though that's kind already been happening.....sorry about that by the way..

anyways! you should check it out! and you happen to also have a tumblr, please follow me! i seriously only have 2 followers and it's kinda embarrassing.. so please please please follow me so it looks like im popular and i have friends! (i know that's a stretch but a girl can dream, can't she?)

check it out amigos --> http://be0k.tumblr.com/ i like to think that's what the inside of my brain looks like

disappointment

ben & jerry's has let me down

I was walking threw the store a couple days ago and i saw what i thought was the most beautiful creation by man. a combination of ben and jerry's ice cream genius and red velvet cake. i excitedly went home to try it and right when i opened it, i knew it wasn't going to be as happy as i'd thought. i don't know about you, but when i think about red velvet, i see a deep red color. instead, i got this light pink nonsense. then i went to taste it, hoping it'd make up for the lack of color. but NOPE. it was not very red velvet-y at all. i was very sad to say the least. so now it's just sitting in my freezer pretending to be ice cream. because it isn't.

Don't let those red chucks of cake fool you, there were NOT that big or that many in my pint. i guess this is what happens when i go out of my normal comfort zone..tear. 

no bueno

Why must parents inflict so much pressure on their kids these days? It's not good for the kid because they get overwhelmed with their own pressure to be perfect at everything they do, and now you want to add parental pressure to the mix?! Not to mention the social,  peer, teacher, and desire to get into a above average 4 year college pressures added on everyday. I don't know about you, but there aren't too many people I know who work well under pressure. It's honestly setting the parents up for disappointment anyways; either because the child failed to reach their parent's expectations, or because they failed to exceed them. It's like an unending cycle of trial and error that isn't benefiting anyone. 

Now that that's out of my system, time to go cry my eyes out, do homework and study my behind off for two tests I will fail tomorrow. wish me luck. (more like pray, but just go with it)

oh, and ice cream is for dinner due to my braces. how fabulous. 

true love

The Book of Sirach (Ecclesiasticus)

Basically the most amazing thing I have ever read.

I can't even form words to describe how I felt while reading it, it was that amazing.

 Catholic or not, pick up a Catholic Bible and read a few verses. 

You won't be sorry. 

One of the reasons why I love this time of the year

Happy holidays everyone :)

couldn't have said it better myself.

"My body isn't perfect.
I don't walk with confidence.
I get into fights with my parents and friends.
Some nights I'd rather be by myself than out partying.
I cry over the smallest thinsg sometimes.
There are days that I get through with forced smiles and fake laughs.
Sometimes I try to convince myself that things are okay when they're not.
I'm not ugly but I'm not beautiful.
I don't look as good in real life as I do in pictures.
There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep.
I constantly think I'm not good enough.
I'm imperfect, but I'm perfectly me." -unknown

thoughts

I've noticed through various conversations with friends that I'm really not that open of a person. I mean yeah, I complain about stupid teenager things, and say my parents are unreasonable sometimes but that's not really being open. I'm not one to tell everyone or anyone for that matter my "internal conflicts" I guess you could say. Maybe it's trust issues, or maybe its just because its something I've never really done before and that's why it doesn't happen, but regardless the reason it will probably be one of those things that just never changes and I'm okay with that. People are always telling me that it's not a good idea to keep things bottled up and such but tooooo late. There's probably all of two people (you know who you are) who know what I was really thinking and feeling throughout this last year. And if you're reading this, trying to remember if I told you anything, then I probably didn't. Don't be offended by it, it's just the plain truth.

So yeah, ha uh.. I thought I'd do a somewhat lengthy, well thought-out post so ta daaa! Modern Family and The Middle are on tonight, and I am very excited.

lesson #2

Don't tell your best friend that he is being replaced by a fish. He won't like that very much. More like at all. Hehe he knows i love him.

That is all. Continue with your lives

shanagins

even though a lot of things made me happy, this video genuinely made my day and all those to come. my ap world history teacher showed us this video in class and i was smiling ear to ear. if you love me, you will get me him for christmas. please and thank you :)